(Because some feelings will only be processed in writing)
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I tell myself I’ll be just fine,
When Christmas comes to pass.
I’ll wear a smile above my scarf—
With mulled wine in my glass.
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I’ll play the songs I love the most,
But there’s one I’ll dread to hear.
The one with words I know too well:
“It won’t be the same this year.”
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I’ll wrap the presents up in bows,
String lights around the tree.
I’ll hang the stockings in a row,
Place the nativity.
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But as the day looms closer still,
My thoughts will linger on.
It was 12/16 I got the call,
And in five days, you were gone.
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My toenails, they were sparkly green
At your funeral last year.
I looked down with misplaced shame
At their burst of Christmas cheer.
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Now coldness taps the windows.
Winter looms in sight.
And I’m not sure how I’ll manage
On this year’s Silent Night.
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If you were here beside me—
Avoiding all that’s Mary and bright—
You’d whisper words like magic,
And make everything all right.
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Since you’re gone, I’ll just imagine
Those words that set me free:
“When you celebrate the memories,
You still celebrate with me.”
So much truth in the last line.
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The holidays are so hard with loved ones missing.
:( ❤️
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That last paragraph, the word “imagines” says it all.
*hug*
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God post!
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