Weren’t we supposed to love each other? Weren’t we supposed to rub noses and dance in our underwear?
What happened to us? To forever and ever? To first and always? To brighter skies and better days?
We took turns tearing it down. Ripping apart the house that love built nail by nail. Shingle by shingle.
Maybe we were angry. Or lost. Maybe we were scared. Maybe we were even brave. But before we knew it, we were broken. We were broken beyond repair.
Scars grew around our wounds. Twisted like ivy. Heavy as an anchor. And so we sank together to the bottom of the sea.
At the end, I looked at you and us and yawned. I looked at the past and the future and winced. So I called you up. And I let you go.
Weren’t we supposed to love each other? We did. To rub noses and dance in our underwear? We did that too.
Then we lit our love on fire and watched it burn to the ground.
But from the ashes, something else grew. Not for us. No, no, no. We were long gone.
But among the wreckage and the mess, the smoke and the glowing embers, I learned a lot about love. I learned how to give. How to fall apart. How to hold back while still letting go. I learned love is neither a battle or a war. It does come easy. But it’s always hard work. I learned that even pain is beautiful. That the good memories are forever worth the bad.
There were six years. Many fights. Endless regrets. But I walked away with my heart in tact. And l have learned to love again.